TEENAGE DIRTBAG - Dylan Klebold

Dylan Klebold was the original teenage school shooter at Columbine Highschool. This shooting (and attempted bombing) was carried out by he and a friend, Eric Harris, on April 20th, 1999. 13 innocent people were killed, including one teacher.

I was stunned when Dylan came through. I hadn't particularly been focusing on anything that could even be remotely associated with him. Like, I wasn't reading a ton about school shootings, or obsessing over the lack of proper gun laws, etc. For him to come through was like getting a visit from someone you have long forgotten about. Oh, but how could we forget about Dylan? His actions started the evolution of school shootings, spiraling it into what it is today, a somewhat regular thing. Dylan, one could say, is the inventor of school shootings. The mastermind behind them. The go to guy for inspiration on how to carry out a school shooting. 

I was hesitant to take Dylan's story. I have thought about what I would do before, if a murderer, or someone who committed crimes against other persons came through, and I had decided that it wasn't something I was particularly interested in doing. This may be a bad business move on my end, but at one point in time the idea of speaking to someone like Brian (Gabby Petito's murderer) infuriated me enough that I didn't care.

The reason I decided to write Dylan's story is that I realized it could bring us answers we didn't have before. And I understand now that after death is a release of the physical form, and everything that person did in life. A soul is never a bad soul. That is a human experience. A soul goes back to the same oneness we all do, no matter what atrocities it committed in life. 

When I connected to Dylan I heard, "them proud boys!" For some reason Dylan wants me to think of my middle son, who just entered highschool, when I think of him. I believe this is his way of saying, "I wasn't so different from him. Or any good kid in school." I feel that what occurred for Dylan to be able to be one half of this murdering duo, wasn't as sinister as we wanted it to be. We would love for it to be something that creates separation between us, so that we can say we are safe from ever experiencing it, but that isn't the truth. Dylan could have been your child, and that's what he really hopes to get people to understand. This is preventable. 

Below, Dylan's after death statement about his actions that day at Columbine High:

"I should have listened to my gut feeling. I didn't want to be there. In a totally different scenario the campus would have been closed that day, and I would have been relieved. But it wasn't and I had no idea how to back out by that point. It was a horrible idea. I hate that we thought of it. Two boys, one a murderer, the other guilty by association. And I'll know which was which. It's heart-wrenching. Best friends who didn't even care about one another enough to stop the insanity. Time stands still when you're holding a gun intended to kill. Even after you die the memory is yours to keep forever. I will return in a new form, and this scar will remain. I'm tattooed forever with shame. 

My mother raised a great boy. Through no fault of her own, that boy chose an alternative route. Let the verdict be out for her. She is a stonewall and I am the water that broke through her. I am her child, not her. And she will walk free, because we as abusers of the natural law, always pay the price for our own undoing. The natural law states that God, and only God, decides who, when, and where. The judgement shall not burden another. And if trespassed, will immediately result in loss of any soul contracts. The last straw for me when I lived as Dylan Klebold, was all the lies that were never untold. The truth not being told turned into a nightmare. One that made life seem without real value. That is where a killer strikes. A man can watch his own child being born without tears in his eyes. And then so can he pull a trigger and shoot up a school. 

In the end, the crimes all start in one place. The law of love is to disperse it frequently, abundantly, totally, unselfishly. It is to grasp what is not said, what needed to be said. And it is to outlive any pain or fear left by the lack of it. I am Dylan Klebold, a notorious school shooter. "

Signed with love, your forever friend, DK.

I have written before about connection being the sole thread that must unravel or be stunted in it's growth, being the cause of school shooting. It's a hatred turned inward that mutates and takes over a once healthy mind. It is easy to feel lost, abandoned, and alone in this world. To feel that the burden to bare for not being like everyone else is a darkness that consumes. 

I hope that anybody who may be triggered by this post, can go home tonight, look at their own child(ren), and ask themselves, is my child the next school shooter? Or am I willing to do something boldly different in my own life?

-Spiritual Diva